The Loss of Innocence Made Me Stronger

I had lost a baby.... my baby.

..it is still so painful...

There is so much silence around this topic...

I have a choice to lie, keep quiet, or tell the truth...

I hope talking about loss becomes the new "normal".

I'll never forget the children I never got to hold...

I fear I will always feel as if our family is not quite complete...

This painful dose we've been served is too much by itself...

I will never forget the tension in the room, when my doctor noticed "something was wrong".

I yelled at God, then I prayed that it wasn't true.

...My life has completely changed and nothing is the same.

Secondary infertility is painful and hurtful, and I asked why it was happening to me, over and over.

I Wish People Talked About This All A Lot More

I can think of no better joy in my life...

I never saw this baby. Not even on the US. And yet... my heart still aches.

Now I'm coping with secondary infertility, but still blessed to have one child.

It's been a ride...

There is nothing my heartbreaking or devastating.

..it was a baby, a baby who already was loved more than anyone could ever really understand.

Grandma had to leave us when she did so she could hand pick the babies we would get and watch over t

I Will Always Mourn That Baby...