I wish that I would have never had to see it all.

It's still very hard for me to share my story without getting emotional but it's all part of healing. I found out I was pregnant on October 8th, 2013 I had to have an ultra sound right away to make sure the baby was growing in my uterus. So we did the ultrasound and we happened to see two embryo's at that time oh boy was I excited. By January 5th I had my second ultrasound to make sure everything was still going ok and then the nurse left and came back with the Doctor and said she had some bad news that our babies no longer had a heart beat. I was then given some pills to insert at home so I could miscarry. It was the most devastating experience ever. I wish that I would have never had to have seen it all. I was unsure of what to do I wanted to capture all the remains and have a burial for them. I felt like I was doing something wrong and unethically inhumane that God would punish me if I didn't bury them. My husband and I we're so excited for that pregnancy because the year before we also had an ectopic pregnancy but I was able to save my tube. I was also pregnant for 2 months with a that baby on July 26, 2013 we also had to terminate before it ruptured my tube. Throughout it all I looked up a few websites for support and Misscarriage Matters Inc has helped me cope through it all. Being able to read and listen to other peoples stories has helped both my husband and I very much. I thank all the volunteers and woman and fathers who have shared there stories as well. I hope that my story will help others as well. God Bless